Lunar Cycle

So it would appear the gloomyness of my last post was more or less based on my body being miffed at me for not making a baby. Stupid period.

"Why would women faint at the sight of blood? They see more of it then men."-Paraphrased from Ygritte.

Anonymous Tumblr Mom: A girl becomes a woman when she gets blood on her favorite pants. It doesn't have to be hers.

Mom is worried about me and my future. She thinks I am isolated. She's worried I would remain isolated in Texas.

If she means I would be a social introvert who prefers to stay in then go out, she's right. This will be true wherever I wind up living.  But this does not make me sad little Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed. I do not make cushions and talk to my tortoise. I talk to numerous friends online via Skype, Facebook, and Tumblr. I prefer fantasy lives in Minecraft, Fallout, and Dungeons and Dragons. I write, I read, I game.

I do not live a lonely or sad life. I am only upset of late because of the Hell House, the Crypt Keeper, a job I resent, and misunderstandings with Dad.

Therefore I shall now list her primary concerns about Texas.

+Red State with Bigots and Politics

+Lack of people when I am in need

+Different teaching license credentials

+Healthcare

+You can't move based on one person

So here are my counter arguments:

+Our current area is full of conservative Bigots. Even on my age range. If I was inclined to socializing, this would be impossible.

+I have two people in the area who can help me in times of need. Maybe. If (When) I relocate to Texas, I will have my bae, and it seems like a decent portion of their family and them are close.

+I don't want to teach anymore. I would not move before I could get a job anyway. +Either full time benefits or potential marriage would give me that. Not to mention I have been been perpetually trapped in health insurance hell since August where we are.

+I moved down here for one person. Her.

I have been very introspective of late. Where I build a life and plant roots to grow, I will likely have limited community support. However I am not alone. The idea that began this blog planted that thought.

My friends are not physically close. But I do not make friends in person often. My network is on the world wide web. Short of a societal collapse, I'll be okay.

In just 2 weeks I will be flying down to Texas to be with my Dragon for our six month anniversary, Valentines Day, and a week containing those two dates. While there it sounds like they will be taking me to a fair of sorts. When I arrive we will go to Walmart to pick up a few things and maybe Montage. Anniversary dinner on 12th. On Valentines Day Deadpool then home made tacos for dinner. And I am told there will be a fair in town.

Long story short I will be getting a feel for the area.